I have always struggled with worrying about different things and it seemed to have come to a whole new level when I had kids. All of a sudden you are thrown into a world where everything feels a bit scary and you question everything.
When they were babies it was...Are they developing ok? Are vaccines safe?
Were they just around someone sick? Do I have the best car seat? Should we eat all organic?
Now it's...How can I keep them safe from the evil people in this world?
What will happen if something happens to Philip or I? Why does Oliver only like hotdogs? :)
Not only do I struggle with fear with my kids but also in my own life. A few years ago, I finally admitted to God that I wasn't sure he had my best interest in mind. I didn't know if He saw my dreams and really cared about them.
Only because life wasn't exactly how I had pictured it.
So I had figured I better take control of the situation before I was left unhappy and far from my dreams.
It took me some time to slowly let go of my grasp on certain dreams and hopes and trust Him with them.
Actually, I still have to remind myself to let go.
How often have I let fear affect my decisions? my parenting? my life?
In John, chapter 6, we find the disciples out on a boat, in the dark, in the middle of a storm.
Here comes Jesus walking on the water towards them and they were terrified.
I mean...can you imagine seeing something with your eyes that just wasn't possible?
He reassured them that it was really Him and told them 'do not be afraid'.
But after all these years...I missed something in these verses.
Not only does Jesus do this miraculous thing of walking on water,
it says, in verse 19, that their boat was 3.5 miles from the shore!
Jesus comes and finds them in the middle of the storm.
He knows their fears and assures them that they don't need to be scared.
He knows our fears and finds us in our storms no matter how far away we are from the shore.
And He asks us to trust Him.
Trust Him with our fears, our dreams, our hurts, our kids, our life.
And speaking of fears...our sweet Anna finally overcame her fear of being on stage!
She was able to sing two Christmas songs with her CBS class in front of an audience!! :)
We were so excited and proud of her!!!